work: my contract is up and the partners are hardly working on trying to keep me. i am asking for the bare minimum and although they know they'd be lost without me they can't motivate themselves past all their new life endeavors to meet me halfway. i know longer work foh, just managing/community relations/events/catering. I miss interacting with people all day instead of my computer. I am currently interviewing with Stephen Starr, which would mean more hours and less self management but more money. i'm up for the challenge and i hope something can go through before my august 31st work deadline.
love: my exboyfriend is psycho and will not leave me alone no matter what i do. i hope he finds a new gf soon so he can stop scaring me. it doesn't help that i'm hooking up with his best friend and if he finds out he will go even more insane on us. it just kind of happened on accident. i feel like we have to keep it a secret and it doesn't make me feel good about myself. i like to go out on dates and let everyone know who i am seeing, not just stay in bed and smoke weed and watch anime...though i really like to do that too. all the other guys that are after me are losers who i am not interested in. basically i can either be truly alone or keep falling for a guy i can never be with.
body: i've been working out and eating whatever i want. i've cut back on drinking a bit and the results are awesome. i feel so confident in my body, more than i ever have. its amazing what working out can do for you energy and self esteem. i hope i never forget this life lesson.
house: i have the opportunity to move out into a house with jesse and buddy. something more affordable but with less privacy and a sure down grade. i finally feel like although tasha is always with her boyfriend, that we are in a good spot in our relationship. the house is amazing and i am in love with bonus. there is also the whole, "should i buy a house" thing. if i do end up taking a new job and staying in philadelphia then thats really the next step. dinner with jeff carpinetta tomorrow will hopefully aid that thought.
