i'm standing on the edge of a cliff. i have two choices, either jump or stay where i am. the "rational" move would be to not jump off the cliff. to stay where i have benefits and plenty of money. sure, living on a cliff can be exciting but every day you wake up look out your window and wonder what lies in the beyond. if i jump, i'll never quite have security. insurance of payment, benefits, and the approval of others. i'll be the girl who at the ripe age of 24 acquired then promptly quit the "dream" job. i can picture myself now, standing at my high school reunion trying to explain what i do with my life. the unconventional choices i have made. the odd jobs i do. the passion i have for my friends and community. how my life is too valuable to be wasting as a cog of the corporate world. it astounds me others do not think like this. or maybe they do, and its just easier to fall subject to the machine. my heart is too big and too strong to succumb and waste away. i never want to miss another important moment in my life because of my job. i never want to work while sick to my bones or while the ones i love are bed ridden. i want to experience life to the fullest and as dumb as it fucking sounds i want to live freely.