i cant say no to helping out anymore. i am over involved but i really like it. people say i am too busy.

"how do you do it all?"

i just laugh and smile.

"i dont sleep"

the insomnia isnt fun but thats why they invented caffeine.

i just want to make a difference. thats all. even if its small.

and if i dont succeed, at least i tried.

i really like you and although it can get frustrating, its nice having someone as busy and involved as me

its just hard finding time to hang out just one on one...

ESPECIALLY since youre living in a tent outside city hall with like 6 other people

i miss lying in your embrace

fuckkkkkkkkkkk

i know you (both) like me but i dont really like either of you

but it didnt seem like that last night

...sorry?

i am a college anomaly. i dont want a one night stand, a rebound, or a rushed relationship. i dont know if my business pushes guys away or if i am just not easy enough but i am so sick of this barrage of guys who i want to like but just cannot. i like the company and texting, but i'm sick of hearing how genuine, sweet, and pretty i am without feeling anything from it.

i am so numb to love. i am so awkward with flirting. i am used to being just the friend.

i really dont think there is anyone out there for me, yet with every passing glance i am looking for it

i'm living life to the fullest.

i am SO happy to be back in philly.

i organize naked bike rides here, show german au pairs around raves, and play miss independent in my house.

you cross my mind every once in a while but i am just too busy to think about it right now.

these are the best years of my life and shit, i am going to live them up!

strep mutating into scarlet fever again?

nooooooooooooo

i've always been a people pleaser, which went hand in hand with caring what other people think of me.

for once in my life i dont care. its silly stuff and its such a relief to not care what people think of me.

who do you call when you feel like you have no one who can listen

the girl who hates hanging up clothes is learning to enjoy it andddd i am learning spanglish at the same time

i am learning how to drive stick and i think i am ready for my first tattoo

i know i am not responsible for my brother but i will never, ever let him feel like he has no one he can rely on

for all this time i was thinking it was me. that i was the one changing and i didnt see the change coming so i forced it. i forced it and i hated it. i know you think i must talk bad about you or what not but i honestly cant...but i need to say this. i am done trying to analyze why we are not friends anymore. honestly, its just a waste of my time. why would i want to be friends with someone that can drop how many years of friendship at the drop of a hat like nothing was ever there. i really valued you as a friend but i really dont see that as a possibility anymore. in my eyes you're the one thats changed and i truly hope you are happy.

basically, this is goodbye.

from what ive experienced these last few months you are not the type of friend i want to have in my life. i kept trying to make excuses for you but i was just running circles around the fact that you no longer exemplify the qualities of a good friend. its hard to admit, but hey...i am content with myself and i have tons of friends that care about me so i'll manage. it freaks me out that i am saying it after all we have been through but things change and life goes on. take care of yourself gabe. you have a lot going for you so try and keep it that way